The Purpose

The Purpose.

I believe everyone has a purpose in their life. I look back at my life and realize how many people I’ve helped in my life either through inspiration on life or the people I have been given the opportunity to meet have relationships in my personal life. There are some that have said but what have you gained through all these “charities cases” and non profit works. I without a doubt always had said, if it wasn’t for the people I’ve met in my life, I wouldn’t have found the life experience and purpose that I have in the world. By all accounts, I really shouldn’t be here when I look at my past. The reason I say that I am blessed, is because I have said, I’m like the Phoenix that has risen from the ashes, but moreover with the things and situations I have been through in my life I should not be here. There has been many tragedies and close calls in my life, I have been given the opportunity to meet people from all walks alive, I was able to travel all over a America and England and a few other places in my young adult life to broaden my horizons. It hasn’t been without meaning, it hasn’t been without cause, it hasn’t been without a reason of my purpose. I believe in all my journeys that is for a “Greater Purpose”, my close friends have always said you’re here for a reason, you’re “Destin for Greatness”, but I had no clue what it really was. I thought at a time in my life, is that to be of a Hollywood Star, so I moved to Hollywood for 4 years and realized very quickly, it didn’t feel right, it was fun, but really there was another purpose. But through out that entire experience I got a lot of kids off the streets and off drugs and I look back today and realize what an impact that I was to those that were in my life. I look back to when I was 18 and started my first non-profit organization (GTA) and tried to help then the homeless gay youth get off the street, and I forget about how hard I worked on that organization until I talked to a friend that has been in my life since I was 8 that reminded me about all the work we did on that, I almost completely forgot about it because I couldn’t get the funding that we needed though it was a legal non-profit organization that I invested my personal money into flyers, meetings, committee members and group forums in Denver. I started that project “before” I had the personal struggles in my adult life. Who would have thought that I, would soon be a homeless youth myself? But I look back now and realize though I have lived in poverty at many times in my life now, and then there were a few times I had no worries-(very few that I look at the times I’ve been dirt poor), but I suppose it was something I had to experience in order to help a new generation that would need my help more, the purpose of my life’s work wasn’t that of just being in the spotlight for myself, God knows, I never profited of that financially but I did in helping those around me and giving me personal triumphs to realize what exactly that “Destin for Greatness” meant. Now, I am no super hero nor am I role model, or a person that is self righteous, it is why I have been blessed to have the following of fans and supporters and friends that I have been blessed to have in my life. Although I have left many times and moved across the country to figure things out on life and happiness and to survive in this world, I find myself to keep coming back to this “calling” that has never left my heart, to help people that were an outcast, that didn’t have the opportunity, and those that were truly good hearted and moral people that wasn’t just out for number one-(its why the friends that I do have are all wonderful individuals that are not “bitches” and “self-serving individuals” it is why I’m blessed to have these people in my life as it is hard to find these types of people especially in California!

To sum all of this up to ok Mercedez, yes we know we know but what now? I’m not just going back to school to just get a higher education for myself although it will provide me stability and focus, but it also for the dedication of my public service in life. Ok so I’ve helped a lot of people without a degree, but the work I can do and help and leave my legacy to one day is “the greater purpose”. I believe this whole heartily. What I will accomplish is setting up grants and funds to help this new generation, where I have had to struggle and survive, one day I hope with my hard work, and social inequality towards individuals such as myself , that this new stepping stone that I can help create, will and without a doubt, stop the discrimination, help and fund the trouble GLBT youth, but also more of a focus on the TG youth, although I have always said never to label myself, I do have put this into a label for the general since that I want nobody to have to go through the struggles, heartaches and hardships that I’ve had to go through. That through higher education that my legacy will provide help to a mainstream of individuals out there but also to save lives and promote healthy alternatives, to give to those a chance, much I’ve had to fight for my entire life to just exist. One day there will be True Equality in this Country for everyone. I hope that my life experience and journey that this in part is what made me stronger then I ever thought I really was to fight the good fight. To have a meaningful purpose to not only get a message out there, a little hope and wisdom but to enable those that were not given the chance, that really wants and need the opportunity, and also “those with a true heart.”