The Only Regret I have-I did vote for Bush

The one thing in my life I have always said is that I have no regrets. Though I have had so many mistakes in my life and things the average person would say how could you not want to take that back if you could, I have always said it made me who I am today.

But I do have this Regret.

Now what you have to remember, is that I came from the Bible belt of the Country. Though my Parents were Democrats, the people that raised me were very Conservative Christians. It made me more diverse in my childhood both being Baptist Catholic and being an alter boy (later I will tell you in my book how this was my first tv gig when I was a child, for a televangelists channel-shocking I know) and then going to a Pentecostal Church with my deep religious roots came from.

My first non-profit political job, though I look back when I first met then Ronald Regan and then president elect the first Senior George Bush when I was 7 at the Capitol of Little Rock Arkansas. I Have met ever president of my lifetime-though this is something that I will elaborate more later on. But I was 14 and making phone calls at the Republican headquarters for Bob Dole. Now as much as a part of my family did not agree, you have to remember that I was always trying to find where I fit in the world and how the Greatest Act of My life has always been trying to fit into a world that we live in would accept me,even if it was a lie.

The first President of the United States that I voted for when I was 18 was George Bush-(the first time). I know this is SHOCKING Revelation, but you have to understand that I thought at the time that he was telling the truth, that certain things that he said he would stand for of course he didn't, and well I just couldn't see Al Gore as the next president, he just would have in my mind carried over the Clinton legacy and I didn't like Mr Gore. Also because as stupid as this might sound, I thought because Dick Channey's daughter was a known and very well outed lesbian that this might help in some way with equal and moral rights. Well I was wrong.

The other main reason that I look back and wonder why I stood for the things politically I did though in my personal life were complete opposite was not because I was ever a Hippocratic person in anyway, it that I was always the underdog and thought that going either left or right determined rather I personally would make it. That I stood for policy's not for the party. So I was never registered as Democrat or Republican, I was Independent.


Now let me tell you this. I am now a Proud Democrat. And though had book value instead of face value I thought I had the answers when it came to politics. That if we put this people in charge to govern us, if there was an order to things we could just all go about our life's and leave it up to them.

And as much and I can't stand what Bush has done to this Country, and how it has effected me in my life, I now say if I could have done anything different I would have not voted for him. Not because my Vote or Debates and Phone calls made a Huge impact at the time, but because of that thinking when it cames to rules and views, left me thinking that I had to follow this oppression that I'm now a part of. Because I always wanted to vote for a winner. I wanted my first election to one day say to my children, I Voted for the Person that won, because I was to afraid to say, I didn't win......

Winning/Underdog. I've always been the one that had to fight and pick themselves up and fight to stay on top but could never be the one that completely just WON. I have always been in the past, second best. Is it because of who I really was, or is that I'm to scared of Losing. Or is that for the sake of acceptance, to throw yourself at the majority that then you won't have to think that in your personal life that I needed a leader and that I was a follower.

I wonder now, that it was actually more of being like the communist party then being in the republican party just because I kept myself prisoner since that is where I thought I belonged. That I had to follow under the rule of somewhere else and then I would find my way. That I was to believe everything that someone told me-yes I learned now not to be Gullible, but I really was when I looked back. I took everything at face value, I had no idea how politics could really influence your life journey. I do know how relegion can. But then again this world is but of all two things. Religion and Politics and we are the pawns waited to be kinged.. If your Independent you are Doomed and Insane because you are not part of the Order. But now I look as the World is changing. Voices are heard among the commonwealth and poorest in society. How in my short life that this is now coming of Age.


Now you might have a better understanding of why at the time I did vote for him.


But may I add the one person in my life that has been influential throughout my life voted for not republican or democrat, but voted for Ross Perot, My grandmother. Even if she never admitted that she approved or disapproved of things in my life, as I look back she was the fighting influence and with age saw another fight that I didn't see and was more liberal then anyone around her could imagine.